The study sample comprised of 22 female HCPs, out of which 9 (40.9%) were doctors, 8 (36.4%) were nurses, and 5 (22.7%) were allied health professionals. Their age ranged from 25 to 35 years. According to data collected, 14 of the participants were married, 11 of them having children. All of these were living with their families. From the remaining 8 participants who were unmarried, 5 used to live in a nursing/doctor’s hostel. This study explored the psychosocial challenges and lived experiences of HCPs serving COVID-19 patients using thematic analysis. Their interviews outlined the following five common themes among the entire study participants: psychological concerns of HCPs while treating COVID-19 patients; feelings towards COVID-19 patients; confidence in government, administration and self-reflection; challenges as female HCPs and coping strategies; and finally, future concerns and recommendations. Many of these themes have also been linked with cultural issues, making the results specific for Pakistan.
Psychological concerns of HCPs while treating COVID-19 patients
All of the study participants were concerned about the contagiousness of the virus, not just for themselves but also for people around them. The aggressive behaviour of the virus, unanticipated deaths, even of very young physicians, made them feel that they are into a crisis and will not be able to cope with it. Most of the married participants were more concerned about their children and parents, because treating COVID-19 patients could have made them to carriers of the virus. Another fear for some of the study participants (n=7) was post-duty quarantine. This is exemplified by a statement of one participant:
“Working with COVID-19 patients in intensive care units was more like working in a morgue. You can feel death everywhere. Somehow you manage to work during duty hours, but when you are alone it’s hard to collect your broken pieces. You have no shoulder to cry and no one to boost you.”
This feeling made quarantine even harder than the duty itself. Some respondents claimed about having difficulties in arranging help to take care of their necessities (related to food, supplies etc.) during post-duty quarantine while other complained about lack of emotional and social support for female HCPs. Those whose partners had a non-medical profession left them alone (during COVID-19 duties), not only physically but also emotionally. The respondents mentioned that their partners had the feeling that the HCPs preferred the job over their health and safety. Some respondents who did not had children preferred themselves to stay away from home during COVID-19 duties, because they were afraid of getting blamed for being carriers at in-laws’ home. Those who had partners in the same professions reported to have more emotional support. However, they had no quarantine period during or after COVID-19 duties. They were living with their families all the time with additional household chores. Only unmarried participants had full support from their families and maintained in the recommended quarantine during and after their duty. The entire study participants acknowledged that their parents and siblings were a constant support for them.
Initially, social support was provided from the general public, but it deteriorated over time due to fake rumours about COVID-19 deaths. One of the participants confessed that people even asked her about how much money she gets for every death. One other claimed:
“People got aggressive in later stages when we advised them to go for COVID-19 testing and assumed that we are planning to kill their patients.”
Some participants claimed that people with educated relatives and people around them got appreciation for their efforts while combating the pandemic. On the contrary, others received a negative gush all the time. All the participants concluded that the social circumstances were better initially, when people were afraid of this pandemic. However, later on the number of cases and deaths increased, whereas fear, care and social distancing decreased due to negative rumours and circulating tales about COVID-19 deaths. This has been enforced through social media which not only increased work pressure but also stress and health concerns.
Feelings towards COVID-19 patients
All HCPs felt depressed while treating COVID-19 patients due to the frequently unexpected response of the virus and different than usual treatment guidelines. One of the study participants reported:
“We were told not to resuscitate and not to ventilate patients in intensive care unit. That was quite frustrating for me as I always got a feeling that it is injustice to the patient.”
Another participant told:
“I once resuscitated a young patient in intensive care unit and he gave positive response. I was so happy, but my fellow colleagues gave quite a backlash instead of appreciating me that why I would endanger myself for this patient and that I am setting a wrong trend.”
Another respondent explained:
“Despite of my experience I had no idea how this virus would work with anybody. In a moment patients FiO2 [Fraction of inspired oxygen] was improving, next moment he was gone which was really depressing – being a competent doctor.”
Another study participant claimed counselling attendants as the most difficult task for female HCPs, as they were not allowed to see their patients. The speed with which the disease progresses in few people made their attendants feel that the patient has been fine and the hospital staff killed him, which made them misbehave with the health care personnel. This is exemplified by the following statement.
“If you were treating a patient from last 12 hours which is getting better during your shift, and 2 hours after shift change you get to know he died, you get a feeling that he was being mistreated. Maybe you could have changed this if you had stayed longer. In reality, things would have remained the same, but you keep on blaming yourself and others.”
Some HCPs claimed that lower rate of survival among intensive care unit’s patients was due to carelessness of senior consultants. One study participant told:
“We were only supposed to follow instructions given during rounds, but were not allowed to make decisions for patients. In case of emergency we had to call ghostly present seniors and by the time senior would arrive the patient has died.”
Some of the HCPs claimed lack of psychological support made patients more anxious and they developed shortness of breath due to overwhelming depression caused by COVID-19 and loneliness. On the contrary, others referred to a lack of ambient temperature in COVID-19 wards and intensive care units along with hot and humid weather as a reason for shortness of breath.
Few study participants claimed power inequality at its peak during the coronavirus pandemic:
“Relatives of powerful people got to stay in intensive care units, even if they don’t need it or have their beds booked for emergency situations, whereas deserving ones suffered.”
Another one told:
“Due to shortage of nursing staff – sometimes one nurse per ten beds – patients who had influential doctor kids or siblings stayed in intensive care units with them – wearing proper protective gears – and provided nursing care to their patients themselves around the clock. This had a very positive effect on recovery of their patients, whereas those having no links were not allowed to even see their patients from outside the ward.”
One participant also complained about the lack of portable equipment like dialysis machines and echocardiography for COVID-19 patients which increased the preventable death toll. All participants had multiple concerns regarding treating COVID-19 patients which demoted their stamina and courage to work in difficult times.
Confidence in government, administration and self-reflection
All participants revealed their cynicism for health departments due to a lack of training facilities for dealing with COVID-19 patients. The only training held by authorities was during March 2020, in form of a session involving few senior specialists from each department. A respondent explained:
“The training session was very general. It was not COVID-19 oriented or COVID-19 specific at all.”
Another participant further elaborated:
“The training included those seniors who never bothered to serve COVID-19 patient nor explained it to other members of the department.”
One HCP who took an up-to-date training session while working in a reputable private hospital in early days of the corona pandemic told:
“All the staff of the government facility, including medical and paramedical, had no idea about the right way of donning and doffing personal protective equipment, which lead to increased corona positive cases among them.”
Most of the participants had a positive attitude towards efforts the government put in combating the pandemic. However, all of them were very disappointed with the hospital administrations which failed in providing quality treatment facilities. There has been a lack of facilities for HCPs who got COVID-19 positive while treating patients. This is illustrated by the following statements:
“There wasn’t even any separate testing area for HCPs. They had to use links to get a bed in hospital if they get sick.”
“If an HCP is tested positive while working in a COVID-19 ward, he gets 15 days quarantine period. But if he gets positive after it, administration refused to give rest, deducted pays even after providing COVID-19 reports and gave them extra duties after returning to work.”
All of the respondents claimed that they got no additional health allowance even after several announcements from government:
“My colleague got COVID-19 positive while serving patients. Her family opted for a private facility when she needed intensive care, but the government offered no health allowance.”
“Due to public announcements of salary incentives by the government, the general public had an impression that doctors are getting a lot of reward for their services, whereas in real not a single one of us got a single rupee incentive.”
All study participants demanded check and balance from government about ground realities going on in hospitals. A respondent explained:
“Seniors and influential people of departments just came, made photographs and took credit while those juniors who actually worked did not get any gratitude or acceptance from administration. This increased their depression and decreased their motivation to work.”
Another one added:
“There must be check and balance at every level so that who worked get credit for their hard work, and those who didn’t get motivated to work next time. But the situation is vice versa here.”
Furthermore, the issue of pregnancies among HCPs has been addressed by the study participants:
“Besides government policies of not putting pregnant ladies and staff with comorbidities on COVID-19 duties, hospital administration forced them to do duties and threatens them to terminate if they refused.”
“Besides being pregnant I was forced to do duty in COVID-19 intensive care units. And when I turned COVID-19 positive, the administration refused to give quarantine as I had mild symptoms. I kept on working all the time while being COVID-19 positive.”
More than 70% of the study participants claimed that this epidemic increased their confidence in themselves and their competence. Most of them conveyed that even though the pandemic prevention duty was hard, it triggered a process of introspection and self-analysis. Therefore, it strengthened their determination, revealed their true potential, and augmented their motivational spirits.
Challenges as female HCPs and coping strategies
Almost all study participants faced additional challenges related to being a female HCP. The majority have faced major transportation challenges due to lockdowns and unavailability of public and private transport. For that reason, they needed additional family tantrums by daily requesting their spouses to drop them, because of missing driving licenses among women. All the participants with children had additional challenges of maintaining family chores along with COVID-19 duties. For example, housemaids were not permitted to work at their homes owing to fear of transmitting the virus through them, as most of the maids work in multiple houses. Moreover, home-schooling and online classes of children without any help increased their conflicts related to work-family-balance during COVID-19 duties. One participant explained her concerns in the following way:
“My child is just eight months old and it was impossible for me to stay away from him as I had nobody to look after him.”
Another one claimed:
“Nobody in my family was ready to take responsibility of my three kids. So, I had to be with them.”
The challenge of families getting infected is highlighted by a further HCP:
“My whole family got COVID-19 positive due to my repetitive duties with COVID-19 patients and staying with them without being quarantined.”
For most of the married participants, the spouse refused to take family responsibility alone. However, the situation was also tough for unmarried hostel residing staff, because during their post duty quarantine period or if turned COVID-19 positive they were ordered to leave hospital’s hostels. The study participants mentioned that male HCPs can stay in hotels or private facilities for quarantine, but female HCPs cannot do so. Instead of showing gratitude and support during these difficult times, they were thrown out of hostels by the administration; and by moving to their residence in other cities they became a carrier for others as well.
Another problem faced by the participants was a lack of changing rooms for females. According to cultural norms, 14 participants used to wear hijab or dupatta, which are scarfs that some Muslim women wear to cover their hair and neck. But after removing the personal protective equipment, they had to go without wearing such a kind of a scarf which was quite uncomfortable for them. In one facility, even a washroom was not available where they could go before leaving the hospital. All married respondents told that they had extra burden of home-schooling children in addition to basic household works which were previously done by maids.
Another serious challenge highlighted by female HCPs was inadequate security in hospitals. Especially those who worked at night shift were badly handled by attendants of deceased patients and hospital security failed to provide safety. On participant explained:
“I hide whole night in a nearby ward as attendants of patients were beating all the staff when we broke the news of their patient’s expiry.”
Another one told:
“Due to negativity spread in the general public at later stage, one night few attendants broke the door of the intensive care unit and we ran to save our lives. Hospital security failed to give protection, so finally we called police who saved us.”
These circumstances increased fear and anxiety among HCPs, but not a single one of the study participants tried any psychological counselling or assessment as stress coping strategy. All of the participants increased praying and tried to make their bond strong with Allah as meditation. The majority of female HCPs also felt better after crying a lot alone when they were tired of battling with this situation. Moreover, health authorities also took no notice about mental health of HCPs and there was no workshop or sessions about psychological coping of the ongoing pandemic crises. This has been judged as an ignorant and irresponsible act by the interviewees.
Future concerns and recommendations
Almost all of the study participants claimed that the pandemic made them realise the importance of living “today”. This is illustrated by the following statements:
“We never get grateful for what we have and keep on planning for a better future. This pandemic made us realise the importance of health, family and self-care.”
“This pandemic made our belief strong in the supremacy of God almighty as a lot of professionals had their plans to immigrate, to go for vacations. But they had to surrender in front of God’s will.”
All respondents agreed that there must be a disaster plan in case of a second wave of COVID-19. The participants emphasized:
“Response should be fast, special recruitments for corona came after the peak months of epidemic due to which they suffered additional load.”
“Protective gears were rare during the initial days. And fear was at its peak which created a lot of pressure on health care professionals. Therefore, government should keep it now for any emergency situation in the future.”
Almost all of study participant suggested that the government should reward those who worked during the pandemic. This relates not only to financial issues, but also a way of appreciation which would increase their courage and dedication towards work.
Moreover, improving the ratio between patients and HCPs and appropriate guidelines and recommendation to handle epidemics must be a regular part of medical training. A participant highlighted this issue in the following manner:
“The drill to work as a team should be improved. We know how to work as a team in our respective departments, but working collectively as a team with different departments must be learned and improved.”
Despite tough circumstances and challenges, 13 of the 22 respondents (59.1%) felt happy to serve during the COVID-19 pandemic. Firstly, they got a feeling that they fulfilled the oath they took to serve the mankind. Secondly, their self-confidence got a huge boost due to working in such difficult times.