The study encompassed twenty-four primary caregivers of pediatric leukemia patients, ranging in age from 3 to 16 years, with a mean (SD) of 7.54 (3.60). This cohort comprised 19 mothers and 5 fathers, with an age span of 28 to 48 years, a mean (SD) of 34.67 (5.39). Both parents and patients’ demographics included in the study are reported in Table1.
Five theme categories and 7 sub-themes emerged from analysis of the interviews (panel):
Panel. Theme categories and sub-themes.
Theme 1. Complex emotional trajectories marked by simultaneous negative and positive feelings
Subtheme 1. Emotional Turmoil and Physical Strain
Subtheme 2. Emergence of Positive Emotions
Subtheme 3. Psychological Adjustment
Theme 2. The considerable burden of care juxtaposed with inadequate coping mechanisms
Subtheme 1. Solo Caregiving and Concurrent Family Challenges
Subtheme 2. The Exacerbating Effects of COVID-19
Theme 3. A pronounced eagerness for caregiving knowledge contrasted with a deficit in essential training
Subtheme 1. Educational Needs on Illness Knowledge
Subtheme 2. Health Education and Training Needs
Theme 4. Curtailed social engagement and challenges in resuming normalcy; and limited social activities and challenging to return to normal life
Theme 5. A pronounced need for psychological support
Theme 1. Complex emotional trajectories marked by simultaneous negative and positive feelings
Subtheme 1: Emotional Turmoil and Physical Strain
This subtheme encapsulates the profound emotional distress and subsequent physical effects experienced by parents upon the cancer diagnosis of their children, coupled with pervasive feelings of disbelief, guilt, and helplessness.
The initial emotional response among parents was characterized by intense shock and denial upon receiving their child's leukemia diagnosis.
P2 recounted, "Initially, I was engulfed in despair, questioning the accuracy of the diagnosis. It required several months for my spouse and me to come to terms with the reality."
P9 described feeling overwhelmed, stating, "It felt as though the world was ending... We were blindsided by such devastating news, especially given our child’s previously good health."
Following the diagnosis, parents reported experiencing significant physical ailments triggered by the stress of their child's condition, including insomnia and weight loss.
P6 shared, "The challenge of sleeplessness was constant, often exacerbated by overnight medical treatments for my child, keeping me vigilant into the early hours."
P1 expressed concerns about the potential for disease relapse and infection, noting, "The fear of relapse and infection, among other unforeseen complications, is a constant source of anxiety."
P12 revealed the toll of stress, saying, "During my son’s most critical month of treatment, I lost over 5 kilograms due to the immense pressure. "
Throughout the treatment journey, parents of children with leukemia grappled with intense guilt, not only towards the afflicted child but also regarding siblings left at home. This emotional burden was compounded by a pervasive sense of helplessness, stemming from uncertainties about providing adequate care and the harrowing fear of potentially losing their child.
P 2 lamented, "I blame myself for not protecting her adequately, leading to her illness. I can't help but feel that I am at fault..."
P3 expressed regret over the inadvertent neglect of their other child, stating, "My inability to devote attention to my other child fills me with remorse."
P1 recounted a particularly challenging episode of infection, "When my daughter faced sepsis and septicemia, I was at a loss, unsure of how to care for her effectively."
P17 shared the torment of fearing the worst, "Whenever I encounter news of children succumbing to cancer, I'm consumed by the fear of losing my son, which overwhelms me with sorrow..."
This journey often saw parents shouldering the emotional burden in isolation, endeavoring to shield their children from the depth of their anguish.
P19 revealed, "Concealing our distress was crucial, as our daughter could easily read our worries. During an especially difficult phase of chemotherapy, which was complicated by a chickenpox infection, she questioned her chances of survival. My response was to embrace her silently, my tears speaking volumes..."
Subtheme 2: Emergence of Positive Emotions
While the initial response to a child’s leukemia diagnosis often involves intense negative emotions, many parents find themselves transitioning towards a state of acceptance, facilitated by the support from their peers and the encouragement of medical professionals.
P1 reflects, "Despite the prevalent sorrow within my family, we have learned to console ourselves. Acknowledging the reality of our situation was essential. The assurance from doctors regarding the high recovery rates of this disease instilled in us the confidence needed for our child’s care."
P16 adds, "The solidarity from healthcare staff and fellow parents has been invaluable. Engaging with them has helped me gradually come to terms with our reality. My focus now is solely on providing the best care for my daughter, without dwelling on the accuracy of the diagnosis."
Subtheme 3: Psychological Adjustment
The journey of psychological adjustment for parents caring for children with leukemia is influenced by various factors including the child’s health status and integration into school life, personal coping strategies, familial dynamics, and the breadth of social support. Although there is a noticeable shift from the initial shock and denial to acceptance and proactive engagement in treatment, the resumption of normal activities such as school can sometimes rekindle feelings of insufficiency in family support, leading to a resurgence of negative emotions.
This process underscores the dynamic nature of psychological adaptation, highlighting that while progress can be made towards positive emotional states, vulnerabilities may persist, especially when faced with new challenges or perceived deficits in support.
P5: "Following the conclusion of chemotherapy, my son experienced a phase of recurrent colds and coughs, which significantly heightened my concern and resulted in numerous sleepless nights."
P8: "Upon my son's reintegration into school, concerns persisted regarding potential bullying by peers and his ability to maintain academic performance."
P7: "During a particularly challenging period, I grappled with feelings of stress and helplessness, occasionally resulting in disagreements with my husband. Handling responsibilities solo in the hospital compounded my frustration."
Self-adjustment emerges as a pivotal strategy for parents nurturing children with leukemia, aiding them in navigating the emotional tumult encountered throughout the treatment journey. This entails either redirecting their focus or proactively acquiring caregiving knowledge to mitigate persistent negative emotions.
P7: "When I felt sad, I would try to shift my attention to something else."
P20: "Whenever I was free, I would search information online or from books on how to provide care for my child. Additionally, doctors and nurses taught me about the illness and how to take care of my child as well. I felt much better now."
Family adjustment refers to the good communication among the family, and being supportive with each other. During the patients’ treatment process, multiple support resources helped parents caring children with leukemia adapt to the adversity.
P12: "Our family dynamic is notably open and democratic, fostering an environment where my son feels comfortable sharing with us. Informed by the doctor that the initial stage would be the most challenging, we collectively disclosed his diagnosis to him and devised a united plan to combat the illness."
P19: "My relatives demonstrated considerable eagerness to assist, contributing financially towards my child's ongoing treatment. Additionally, social workers facilitated the search for academic tutors, while my daughter expressed aspirations to pursue a career in medicine."
P20: "Upon discovering our child's illness, my colleagues and friends extended substantial support through financial aid, goods, and moral encouragement, enveloping me in a sense of love and warmth."
Theme 2. The considerable burden of care juxtaposed with inadequate coping mechanisms
Subtheme 1: Solo Caregiving and Concurrent Family Challenges
A predominant theme among parents was the solitary nature of caregiving responsibilities, compounded by simultaneous family adversities.
P 1 shared, "Following our child's diagnosis, my spouse and I left our jobs in another city to live near the hospital. My husband secured a local delivery job, while I single-handedly manage my child’s care."
P9 disclosed, "My health struggles, including a recent flare-up of lumbar disc herniation, complicate my caregiving duties, yet I persevere for my child's sake."
P16 recounted, "The day of my daughter's diagnosis was overshadowed by a family crisis—my sister-in-law's car accident and my mother-in-law requiring post-operative care amidst mourning my father-in-law’s passing. This necessitated our departure from employment to attend to both elder and younger family members."
Subtheme 2: The Exacerbating Effects of COVID-19
The pandemic introduced unique challenges for these families, from movement restrictions to heightened infection risks.
P1 explained, "Initially, I prepared meals for my daughter at our rental. However, COVID-19 restrictions halted our mobility, affecting our family's sole income as my husband had to cease working to manage our daughter’s nutritional needs due to the hospital's inadequate food options."
P16 stated, "Living remotely necessitates monthly hospital visits for my child's treatment, with mandatory throat swabs amplifying our anxiety over potential COVID-19 exposure."
Theme 3. A pronounced eagerness for caregiving knowledge contrasted with a deficit in essential training
Subtheme 1: Educational Needs on Illness Knowledge
Parents of children with leukemia expressed a strong desire for professional education pertaining to the disease.
P13 noted, "I found considerable value in 'Xiaobai's Sunflower Treasure,' a resource available in the ward. It, along with educational articles from the hospital's WeChat account, became my trusted sources of information, given my skepticism about the reliability of online content."
P18 stated, "Despite acquiring substantial knowledge about the illness from other parents and medical staff, my thirst for comprehensive information remains unquenched. I'm keen to access any knowledge that could aid my child's treatment and recuperation."
P20 mentioned, "I am eager to engage in educational initiatives about leukemia. The clinical expertise of medical professionals offers invaluable insights."
Subtheme 2: Health Education and Training Needs
This theme captures the necessity for parents to acquire specialized knowledge for enhanced caregiving, including dietary guidance.
P23 expressed, "I am interested in dietary training to learn optimal meal preparation for my child."
P10 shared, "My knowledge largely comes from medical staff and other parents. While peer advice is beneficial, it often lacks coherence. Structured, professional training would be preferable."
P18 revealed, "Online platforms like 'The Mother's Classroom' have been informative. I've also gleaned tips from nurses' instructions to interns. While peer experiences are valuable, the need for expert guidance tailored to my child's unique condition is paramount."
Theme 4. Curtailed social engagement and challenges in resuming normalcy; and limited social activities and challenging to return to normal life
The majority of parents caring for children with leukemia found themselves compelled to resign from their positions to dedicate themselves to their children's care, leading to a significant reduction in their social engagements and alterations in their external relationships.
P11 shared, "My social life dwindled to practically nothing, resulting in lost connections with several friends. My world has been reduced to the hospital, home, and the occasional supermarket visit for groceries."
P17 observed, "Currently, my social interactions are predominantly with other parents from the hospital; my connections with external friends have significantly waned."
P21 explained, "Given the prolonged absence from our home, our extended family and friends are well aware of my child's condition. I've avoided contact to prevent any assumptions that we might be seeking financial assistance."
Parents of children in the recovery phase reported challenges in reintegrating into normal societal roles due to prolonged isolation and the stigma associated with their child's illness.
P7 stated, "Even though my child's health has stabilized, reentering the workforce has been daunting due to my age and the need for ongoing child care. Finding suitable employment remains a perplexing challenge."
P18 lamented, "Having lost my original social network, reestablishing my professional life feels like starting from scratch, which is incredibly daunting."
P6 recounted, "Residing in a rural area, we've encountered gossip about my child's condition, particularly noticeable during her hair loss from chemotherapy treatments, leading us to refrain from returning to our village."
Theme 5. A pronounced need for psychological support
The majority of parents attending to children diagnosed with leukemia reported a significant need for psychological support, including counseling services, yet they faced uncertainty regarding access to such resources.
P15 remarked, "We, alongside our fellow caregivers, consistently offered mutual encouragement and support, underscoring the invaluable role of psychological support in our journey."
P18 noted, "I am open and eager to engage in psychological counseling; however, I am at a loss as to where such services can be procured."