English as a main subject versus its marginalized position
The first recurring theme indicated by participants is the marginalization of English teaching, which conflicts with their imagined identity as key teachers in a main subject. In the Chinese educational system, Chinese, Math and English are considered the three most important subjects, often referred to as ‘main subject’ or ‘zhuke’, since they carry the greatest weight in various exams. In contrast, minor subjects (fuke) such as Physical Education often receive less attention. Despite being classified as a main subject teacher, English is sometimes treated like a minor subject in practice. When asked to describe the challenges they face in everyday teaching as English teachers, the participant responded:
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Zhao: The way English classes are scheduled makes it feel like we are treated as a minor subject. Most of our classes are scheduled at times that, in my opinion, aren’t very ideal — for instance, the last period in the morning or the first period in the afternoon. Pupils’ attention is often not very focused during these periods. At the same time, English has fewer class hours compared with Chinese and Math, which makes it more difficult to achieve the teaching objectives.
Obviously, Zhao’s experience highlights how school policies contribute to the marginalization of English teaching. The less favourable scheduling and reduced teaching hours are direct results of these policies, reinforcing the tension between their imagined identity as key subject teachers and the reality of their teaching environment. Meanwhile, another participant, Qian emphasizes the marginalization of English teachers’ professional development and the shortage of English teachers.
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Qian: We are burdened with heavier teaching loads, leaving little time for professional training. The shortage of EFL teachers sometimes exacerbates the problem—if I attend training, there’s no one available to cover my classes.
Researcher: Do you mean that the institution tends to recruit fewer English teachers compared with other main subjects?
Qian: Yes, I really don’t know why! There is an evident shortage of English teachers, but the school won’t recruit more. Thus, we often teach more classes than Chinese and Math teachers.
In addition to the institutional factors, Qian also mentioned her surprise to parents and students’ indifferent attitudes towards English learning.
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Qian: Students and parents clearly give English less attention. So, I often ask them ‘Isn’t English a main subject? You put lots of effort into Chinese and Math, but how much time do you spend on English? Since many parents themselves struggle with English, they often don’t monitor their children’s progress in the subject as closely.
Qian’s observations highlight a significant challenge in aligning her imagined identity as a main subject teacher with the reality of her daily interactions with students and parents. In particular, she realised that the level of collaboration and support she expected from her parents was often lacking. This disconnect not only reinforces the marginalization of English teaching but also introduces a new layer of identity tension: the conflict between an EFL teacher’s imagined role as a collaborator with parents and the reality of functioning as a solo educator.
A collaborator with parents versus a solo educator
As novice teachers who just entered the profession, participants in the study imagined that they would work closely with parents to support students’ English learning. Nevertheless, the experiences shared by the participants reveal a different reality, where parental involvement is often minimal.
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Song: Parents might put some effort into children’s Chinese and Math as they can at least understand the ‘Chinese characters’ in the textbooks but when it comes to English, they don’t care at all! As a result, their children’s performance is very poor. I tried to support those children at school, but I eventually realised it wasn’t enough. It seemed like parents were working against my efforts.
As indicated by Song, the lack of involvement not only hampers students’ progress but also undermines the teacher’s efforts. The imagined identity of being a collaborator with parents, which is crucial for effective teaching, becomes difficult to realise. This identity tension is not unique to Song. It is a common experience among all participants who express disappointment with parents’ attitudes toward their children’s English learning. For instance, Li, Lin and Wang indicate that even if they are aware that not all parents would be deeply involved in children’s English learning, they still expect some support from parents. Lin mentioned a divorced mother who just ‘completely gave up’ her two children’s English learning due to busy schedules. ‘I advised her to at least have her children read English for five minutes every day — just five minutes following along with the tape recording, but she just wouldn’t do it.’ Interestingly, the findings from this study contrast with those of Nazari et al., (2023) who explored novice teachers’ identity construction in Iran. In that context, rather than experiencing a lack of parental involvement, Iranian EFL teachers were overwhelmed by excessive parental pressure. These teachers felt pressured to present a positive ‘image’ to parents, even when it did not reflect their true feelings. The identity tension in their cases arose from constantly having to mask their true thoughts in order to meet parental demands.
Despite the different forms, the tensions faced by Iranian and Chinese EFL teachers are quite alike as both scenarios highlight the critical role parents play in the educational process. Whether their involvement is lacking or overbearing, the reality deviates from the novice teachers’ initial expectations of working together with families to support students’ learning. These tensions force novice teachers to re-evaluate their roles and adjust their strategies for navigating relationships with parents.
A focused English teacher versus a constrained subordinate worker
One chronic issue faced by many Chinese teachers is the overburdened non-teaching responsibilities such as unnecessary meetings and administrative tasks (Yang et al., 2019, p. 7). As indicated by the State Council General Office of China (2019), due to ‘historical and structural’ reasons, teachers nowadays still have to tackle numerous non-teaching tasks, which greatly disrupts normal educational activities. As for the current study, the unexpected non-teaching tasks challenge participants’ envisioned identity as dedicated English teachers, transforming it into that of constrained subordinate workers. For example, Zhao described a situation where she was annoyed by the responsibility of reporting events on the school’s WeChat public account, a unique feature of WeChat app that is similar to the social media page or blog.
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Zhao: In my first year of teaching, I was asked to run the school’s public WeChat account, which became a major source of stress. The requirements were unbelievably high! We had to ensure each article had perfectly matched images and even select background music for every post. I just couldn’t understand why it had to be so detailed. This task took a huge amount of my time and energy, pulling me away from my teaching responsibilities.
Similarly, another participant, Song reflected on several trivial tasks that she had not anticipated before becoming a teacher, including certain ‘duties’ she found disruptive and exhausting.
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Song: To ensure student safety, teachers are required to stand in areas where children are likely to run and get hurt. At the same time, there exists a ‘canteen inspection’ duty for teachers that I find particularly frustrating. Once or twice a semester, teachers are assigned to inspect the food in the school canteen at 5:30 AM. I don’t understand why, as a teacher, I need to perform tasks like this. It feels unrelated to my role and adds unnecessary strain.
Both Zhao and Song’s experiences illustrate how non-teaching duties can suppress novice teachers’ autonomy and professional satisfaction. They create a sense of powerlessness, as these teachers feel unable to resist tasks imposed by administrative expectations, even when these tasks clash with their personal and professional values. Consequently, the image of an engaged and focused English teacher becomes overshadowed by the reality of being constrained by institutional structures and duties beyond their control.
In addition to the everyday trivia, novice teachers who serve as Banzhurens face even more significant challenges.
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Wang: Before I enter the profession, I expected the job would be easy and fun as I really enjoyed teaching English. However, our school is just too ‘juan’ (involution) and the headmaster has high expectations of teachers as well. As a Banzhuren, I have to take care of so many things that go beyond the classroom. Sometimes I have to deal with students’ personal issues during my English classes, which disrupts the flow of my teaching.
Wang’s experience underscores the tension felt by many novice teachers in Banzhurens’ role. The term juan (also known as neijuan) is a new buzzword that refers to a ‘hypercompetitive social environment’ (Gu & Mao, 2023, p. 2). Such an environment obviously exacerbates the identity tension, especially when novice teachers are inexperienced in balancing their passion for teaching with the overwhelming administrative and emotional burdens of being Banzhurens. Under such circumstances, a rather supportive and less stressful school environment may help novice teachers to navigate this identity tension. Being a Banzhuren as well, Li indicated a different experience:
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Li: I really enjoy my work. My school is located in a suburban area where there’s less competitiveness. Although my students generally have a weak academic foundation due to their underprivileged backgrounds, the headmaster and all my colleagues are very helpful. As both a Banzhuren and an English teacher, I learn a lot from them in terms of class management and teaching design.
Researcher: Are there many administrative or non-teaching tasks when being a Banzhuren?
Li: Of course, there are always some, but I can handle them. Actually, I feel a sense of accomplishment in this role when I successfully persuade students who are thinking of dropping out to return to class.
Li’s perspective offers a stark contrast to Wang’s experience, confirming the vital role of the school environment in resolving identity tension. These findings echo Li et al.’s (2023) study in which the ‘school culture’ can significantly moderate Banzhurens’ burnout and emotional exhaustion. In environments characterized by a ‘supportive clan’ or ‘adhocracy culture’, Banzhurens may feel more empowered and less emotionally exhausted.
Regulating emotions in navigating identity tensions
As shown in previous interviews, identity tensions are inevitably accompanied by certain emotional challenges such as frustration and depression. In the current study, response modulation, attentional deployment, cognitive reappraisal, and situation modification are used interchangeably by participants.
From reappraisal to situation modification
First, cognitive reappraisal serves as an effective strategy for dealing with the frustration caused by identity tension. For instance, when asked about her emotional experience in tackling parents’ neglect of students’ English learning, Song responded:
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Song: Instead of getting frustrated, I try to tell myself that it is not entirely their (parents) fault. I tend to empathize with the parents and will think from their perspective. It’s not about blaming the parents but about finding ways to support the students.
Song’s answer highlights a vital aspect of cognitive reappraisal, which is ‘rationalisation’ (Hagenauer & Volet, 2014; Morris & King, 2018). By attributing the lack of parental support to external circumstances, Song rationalises this emotionally challenging situation and tries to focus on constructive solutions. Nevertheless, this strategy may not be an enduring solution as it does not directly change the underlying circumstances that result in the conflicts. This is where situation modification comes into play as a complementary strategy. In the late interview, Song describes how she ‘modifies’ the situation through a home visit.
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Song: I patiently explain to parents about what they can do during the home visit. I try to move them with my sincerity and convince them with reason. Eventually, most parents empathize with my difficulties and understand their role in children’s English learning.
By modifying the original situation, Song creates an opportunity for parents to reconsider their roles and become more engaged in their children’s education. Similar situations are prevalent among other participants. Li, Qian and Lin all indicate that at the very beginning, they may not fully understand parents’ dilemmas as they would imagine every parent to be responsible. However, when reality makes them emotionally exhausted, they start to rethink their expectations of parents.
Song’s example illustrates a successful case where cognitive change ultimately reshapes the social context, alleviating frustration and identity tensions. Nevertheless, not all participants can achieve this. Wang, for instance, describes an alternative way of dealing with similar situations.
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Wang: Initially, I felt extremely frustrated when parents are apathetic toward their children’s English learning. However, as time goes by, I get used to it and no longer feel as frustrated or annoyed. I adjusted my mindset, realizing that not all parents could be responsible for their children’s education. All you can do is just to help the child at school as much as possible.
Wang’s experience reveals a different approach to cognitive reappraisal and situation modification. Initially employing cognitive reappraisal, she ultimately accepts parental apathy as a constant. This emotional adjustment leads her to modify the situation in a more passive manner, focusing on supporting students in the classroom without seeking parental involvement. Under such circumstances, Wang’s imagined identity transforms into a practiced one where teachers are the sole educators. In contrast, Song utilizes cognitive reappraisal to empathize with parents and modify the situation through home visits. By doing this, she maintains her imagined identity as a collaborator, reinforcing the role of a proactive EFL teacher.
Response modulation and attentional deployment
Response modulation and attentional deployment serve distinct but interrelated roles in how teachers navigate emotional challenges in the face of identity tensions. The former involves more immediate actions to manage emotions while the latter focuses on the strategic allocation of attention to regulate emotional experiences over time. When asked about her emotional trajectory in dealing with the excessive non-teaching tasks, Zhao responded:
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Zhao: I feel irritable, depressed and frustrated but there is nothing you can do. So, I just finish those tasks as soon as possible. I try not to think of them too much during my teaching activities. Once I don’t think about them, I start to feel much better.
Zhao’s descriptions imply that she initially suppresses negative emotions to complete the tasks. This expressive suppression strategy allows her to maintain her professional responsibilities. Over time, Zhao employs attentional deployment, consciously shifting her attention away from the annoying tasks. Her dynamic emotional trajectory reflects a complex process of navigating identity tensions. The initial reliance on expressive suppression shows the immediate pressures she faces, allowing her to push through tasks without fully confronting her negative emotions. In contrast, the use of attentional deployment signifies a conscious effort to reconnect with her imagined identity as a focused English teacher. This strategic redirection not only helps alleviate her emotional burden but also serves as a vital step in reconciling the conflicting aspects of her identity. Such a tactic is not limited to Zhao’s experiences but applies to many participants in the current study. For instance, Lin and Wang feel outraged in the face of identity tensions when they must use a great deal of time in their English class to tackle students’ issues. Instead of expressing this anger, they instinctively suppress their feelings, believing it is inappropriate to reveal negative feelings in front of their students. This suppression, much like Zhao’s allows two participants to fulfil their tasks even under the impact of identity tensions. As they continue to navigate these challenges, Lin and Wang begin to adopt similar strategies of attentional deployment, finding ways to redirect their focus toward the positive aspects of their teaching. Both participants indicate that they often think about positive things such as holiday plans and their students’ progress.
In addition to suppression, EFL teachers may also directly ‘vent’ their emotions rather than suppress them, especially at the very beginning of the teaching journey when identity tensions can be overwhelming. Qian described her early teaching experiences as emotionally exhausting when the reality starkly contrasted with her envisioned identity.
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Qian: When I started teaching, I was not very good at controlling my emotions. There were times when I had outbursts in the classroom and the office due to the overwhelming non-teaching tasks. I feel quite guilty about it because teachers shouldn’t lose their temper in front of the whole class. Fortunately, my students and colleagues are very considerate and supportive.
Qian’s experience aligns with Morris and King’s (2018) study, which found that Japanese EFL teachers also feel guilty as they vent their emotions to temporarily relieve frustration. This cycle of emotion-venting followed by guilt suggests an interesting relationship between teachers’ identity and emotion regulation strategies. While venting helps teachers tackle their frustration, it results in a new and different identity tension when emotional outbursts conflict with teachers’ internalized ideals of professionalism. As a result, guilt emerges as a new emotional challenge that needs to be dealt with. In Qian’s later interviews, support from students and colleagues plays a crucial role in alleviating both frustration and guilt, particularly when venting is used as a strategy. This situation is akin to Gkonou and Miller’s (2023, p. 8) study in which EFL teachers’ emotion regulation is ‘relationally performed and undertaken’ rather than an individual process.